tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78165194150103963652024-03-20T10:31:35.474-04:00M I S O - H A P P YUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger353125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-19540987710835569262023-05-22T12:11:00.001-04:002023-05-22T12:11:25.811-04:00Married Man - Part 7<p>At this point, we're all probably a bit sick of hearing about this married co-worker of mine but I kind of just wanted to wrap up everything that has been going on with him since, as well as the guy I mentioned back in Part 5. To make a long story short, I believe it was a few months back but the married man ended up telling me how he had slept with his ex-wife and was considering going back to her. At that moment I realized if he could leave his current wife to go back to his ex-wife that he would've been willing to do the same for me... and yet, he did nothing of the sort and continued to make no real quality time for me. When he told me about this I was pretty heated, and he tried to play it off as if he was joking but it turned out to not be a joke at all. We are now able to chat again at work, but I'm no longer texting him or going out with him, or trying to actually be something because I know he'll never be the right person for me. I'm not going to be a second, third, etc woman in his life that he really doesn't appreciate in the end because ultimately he doesn't respect any of us and I know that all of us deserve so much better, especially at the expense of a guy who doesn't seem to know what he wants or what he's doing to us. Even today he says that he's waiting for me to reach out and message him to go do things again... but that's never going to happen so, he can just keep waiting and dreaming about the person he will never have again. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcwWW7aBekjhVEHke_u6cYzaymigs_QKh4wanjuusMQzzxX3IdKpSFe7btd2Vsq-pwm8T_H_e7qPYSXbGaMYKWZHbsHvpde8fJBn1Fu61rEI0mMqo-91JWUIwUxZ5rJg5hgcQ2Pe15IcAdaFjNYnswF_P_DKefIb_wX52R04lQh-Jsi4UdcoaJBhOeGQ/s4032/broken.PNG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcwWW7aBekjhVEHke_u6cYzaymigs_QKh4wanjuusMQzzxX3IdKpSFe7btd2Vsq-pwm8T_H_e7qPYSXbGaMYKWZHbsHvpde8fJBn1Fu61rEI0mMqo-91JWUIwUxZ5rJg5hgcQ2Pe15IcAdaFjNYnswF_P_DKefIb_wX52R04lQh-Jsi4UdcoaJBhOeGQ/s320/broken.PNG" width="240" /></a></div><p>I mentioned before about basically falling for a person that had become my best friend over the past 10 months. We originally met off of a dating app and shortly after we had begun talking he ended up removing his account and told me that he wasn't ready for a relationship after all. So we became very good friends, I could talk to him about anything really. However, we would always end up flirting with each other and eventually ended up hooking up. Even on our first date, he told me how maybe he wanted to be in a relationship with me after all. Other times he told me that if he was ready to be in a relationship he would want to be with me, but we continued being flirty friends up until things took a turn. Suddenly he became a little quiet and after I continuously asked him what was going on he finally told me and it completely altered everything we had built. He told me that an old friend recently reached out to him and confessed to him that she had feelings for him. He said that he wanted to explore being in a relationship with her and acted as if he was now only telling me out of "respect" for me. I'm not sure what "respect" that was when I had to constantly ask him what was going on instead of him just being upfront with me and him choosing to hide it from me, for who knows how long, since he didn't give me any real info on the situation. If she was a friend of his how come he never mentioned her before to me and I doubt that she'll ever love him as much as I did but that's not my problem anymore. It was bad enough days before he told me that he didn't love me, even though in the past he had said he did. At this point, I was probably the most heartbroken I had ever felt in my entire life because I would have done literally anything for this person because I started to feel as if he was my person. Not to mention that for nearly a year it had all just basically been a lie since all it really took was the right person to come along for him to fully change his mind about the whole relationship ordeal. I realized at that moment that he just killed our entire friendship single-handedly because I was never going to be able to see him with someone else and just remain friends, especially when everything was a lie. </p><p>So, that's what has been going on in my life lately. I just want to state that it's actually very hard to write these posts at times and share my life with people on here but I feel like it helps me learn about myself which hopefully helps in my personal growth. I also hope that it helps others out there going through similar situations and knowing that you aren't alone. I'm hoping one day, I can post about positive things going on in my love life or lack-there-of but for now, this is what it is. Sometimes you have to go through hell to find and appreciate the good that heaven has to offer so, be thankful for what you have and if you don't have to go through these situations. </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-34928163822681784862022-09-21T17:01:00.000-04:002022-09-21T17:01:53.160-04:00Married Man - Part 6<p>To make a long story short, I basically ended things after said Married Man wanted to get a hotel room and then hours later told me to purchase a night there and he'd pay me back... no, I'm not going to be someone's secret anymore. Nor am I going to be someone's whore since I've been made to feel like one all this time. Of course, he had the audacity to say something along the lines of "not this again" when nothing was ever really resolved the first time so, I'm going to continuously bring things up to him. Also, to just dismiss my feelings like that, no no nooo... bye boy. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnwERft8CsyTIHQD00Ta72_kgF8CWf97-ZYhszXtokKqeIbCmBWHDykx0U1dGIRzRWARu2gBGg_Yo-d1vSPyqUdBBzWVu1Z98OQMPVtAXqutEPNXk-8y1FF1KG9OIYQsAU_I1lyDY6PmKID6a-vrCyvGo_E89kELFAmZct1rujCTN0AZOVCBM5hg1v7g/s640/stopit.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="427" data-original-width="640" height="214" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnwERft8CsyTIHQD00Ta72_kgF8CWf97-ZYhszXtokKqeIbCmBWHDykx0U1dGIRzRWARu2gBGg_Yo-d1vSPyqUdBBzWVu1Z98OQMPVtAXqutEPNXk-8y1FF1KG9OIYQsAU_I1lyDY6PmKID6a-vrCyvGo_E89kELFAmZct1rujCTN0AZOVCBM5hg1v7g/s320/stopit.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><p>So basically, we left things with him texting me how we should just be friends... last I checked we were "special friends." I haven't responded to him since and honestly, I don't even want to be friends, yet alone co-workers. I'm perfectly content to not speak to him again and not because he told me not to this time. If I continue to give someone chances and they don't immediately show me they are sorry... it's a NO for me because they aren't taking things seriously enough and my time is precious. Never forget your worth and if people continuously show you their true colors, DO NOT make any type of excuses for their behavior. As one person said recently, an apology of any kind needs to match the crime/issue. </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-3154722163041636302022-09-07T18:36:00.001-04:002022-09-07T18:36:50.234-04:00Married Man - Part 5<p>I tried to end things with this married man... and I did, but then I was kind of missing him (or maybe I was a little jealous) as I noticed him being friendly toward other women around the office after I ended things. I've realized it's really hard to find someone worthwhile when I feel really lonely (mostly late at night), to the point any guy who looks at me a certain way I'd probably start to have a little crush on him or something... I don't like feeling this way because I'm not desperate and if I was I'd be dealing with a lot of a**holes who just want to screw me... instead of just the one who happens to be married. </p><p>There's one guy who actually first became my friend that I tried to date, and we did very briefly but I guess he really just wanted to stay single in the end... now it's hard for me to just be his friend when I do really like him and I can't even get the guy to meet up with me in person after months of talking to him. Then at times, I notice he gets jealous of other guys who talk to me and he even asks me if I had "fun" over the weekend and I'm just like "would you really want to know that and also why should you care?" so then, he drops it. Unfortunately, I've noticed our friendship may even be coming to an end, it makes me sad because I don't really have anyone else I feel I can talk to about day-to-day things. </p><p>I do feel deep down that my married co-worker just isn't really interested, well, definitely not invested in me as he barely finds time for me, he never takes me anywhere, and we just hook up even when he knows I'm not interested in that because I need more from someone. I need substance, I need a friendship, I need someone who always wants to be with me and can hardly stop talking to me... I honestly feel like we don't even know each other even though we've known of each other for years. I finally got him to meet up with me for a second time outside of work (its been 5 months since the first time) and I honestly think it was because I told him how I work 3 jobs and I'd still find time for him (which he doesn't know me so he never knew that)... so maybe he thought all I do is sit around all day while he deals with his teenage son or something. I'm starting to feel as if he's making my life semi-miserable because that's really how he is in his marriage. Then all his excuses on how he's busy like how he had 2 jury duty things to go to in a week and supposedly they were both dropped so he never had to go... ok, so if that's the case why didn't he try to meet me then.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGHCJrqJaaHjoOBk29N7HxPCLQfUgkx4ufipbzMEFzbpugXUgPZGz6C8U31RmoWwdZeT_tdsX9I39qjn8WdTqWK7k2Q5IiYrbdo7hBFc4frS1hLcljo_-3Z861c9NL350vDlEGbvjS33Ch9HxFTUBRQ-bKaLnxFYVU85U43WusykrvMWN5JHykDyH8og/s1920/erfan-rahmani-sHcuC_0dKro-unsplash.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1920" height="232" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGHCJrqJaaHjoOBk29N7HxPCLQfUgkx4ufipbzMEFzbpugXUgPZGz6C8U31RmoWwdZeT_tdsX9I39qjn8WdTqWK7k2Q5IiYrbdo7hBFc4frS1hLcljo_-3Z861c9NL350vDlEGbvjS33Ch9HxFTUBRQ-bKaLnxFYVU85U43WusykrvMWN5JHykDyH8og/w413-h232/erfan-rahmani-sHcuC_0dKro-unsplash.jpg" width="413" /></a></div><p>Needless to say, if someone else comes along I'm done with this married man who has titled us as "special friends" recently. Also, now I have a little crush on a new guy at work so, this could get very interesting if said "new guy" is single or if he even likes me but I did catch him looking and smiling at me today *sigh*. I guess it's just back to the drawing board unless a miracle happens in my love life. It's sad that I'm nearly 40 years old and the dating pool of amazing catches is extremely limited. </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-17353535237977618792022-07-31T19:33:00.001-04:002022-07-31T19:42:29.134-04:00Married Man - Part 4<p>After months of me not speaking to said "married man" I finally decided to, since he seemed to forget why I stopped talking to him, which was because he told me to. Then I proceeded to remind him of everything else he said to me, it all seemed to be coming back to him. While I didn't really get an apology, I guess you could say we made up... because we did finally end up hooking up. However, it was about as lackluster as his kissing. So now while he claims I'm his (personally, I still very much view myself as completely single as I never agreed to another relationship with him), I've noticed he keeps finding reasons to not hang out with me before I could even suggest that we do hang out at all. For example, since work wasn't sending me out of town it suddenly became his family was in town for the next 3 weeks. Then I started suggesting to him that he makes plans with me after his family leaves, he acted like we should but then it happened again. He stated a few days later how his old army buddies were coming to town on Thursday, the day he knows I'm off work usually. I found that odd because before he told me how Thursdays were his "day of rest" after him working a week straight. </p><p>Needless to say, the thrill has been completely gone on my end, to the point I'm not investing my thoughts or pursuits of him anymore really. I'll humor the few tiny texts he sends me saying how he wants me... or sometimes I'll just ignore the texts until I feel like getting back to him, if that. I'm no longer going to pursue him harder than he pursues me and I'm not going to be the one putting in any real effort anymore because I kind of don't want him in my life but I haven't broken the news to him. I'm kind of just curious if he ever plans anything at all with me within the month of August and if things haven't ended by then, I'll let him know that whatever he thinks this is, is over. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXQlw7S3pHLQVKXvnDmdUUEIZWHDGPSnpc36y7axsGvCdvPXin_IY6aeOOvUkp-U8tfFwDjpALPSPZhPxgGs7xAAjhtsIQLc41C3iCzKfHFXUutlemT5IIlzh2w7LKLDEEm4NycFn8mCAf27hcThWqxgAtMjWWXj_mEm-lOUmH1fJKtCh4xk-pVFR2Dg/s668/crafting.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="668" data-original-width="492" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXQlw7S3pHLQVKXvnDmdUUEIZWHDGPSnpc36y7axsGvCdvPXin_IY6aeOOvUkp-U8tfFwDjpALPSPZhPxgGs7xAAjhtsIQLc41C3iCzKfHFXUutlemT5IIlzh2w7LKLDEEm4NycFn8mCAf27hcThWqxgAtMjWWXj_mEm-lOUmH1fJKtCh4xk-pVFR2Dg/s320/crafting.png" width="236" /></a></div><p>Since everyone seems under the impression that if I'm not talking to them that I must be out getting laid... I'm very much not. I've focused my energy on my art and crafting and selling my creations online.. continuing to do the things that make me happy because right now, that just isn't a man. On that note guys from my past keep arising back in my life and I'm really not sure why because they all seem to enjoy telling me how I'm basically some aggressive b*tch who doesn't care about them, well, I guess they aren't completely wrong now that I'm typing this out. Truth is, I don't really care about them, and I am likely very angry at them and they're seemingly upset that I won't drop my anger and forget about the past. I absolutely refuse to forget the past because I don't like to keep repeating the same mistakes, that is the definition of insanity... to keep doing the same things and it only yielding the same results and they just continue wasting my time and energy all over again. I don't care if that makes me stubborn, if it keeps a**holes out of my life then... all the better I suppose. There are millions of people on this planet, I don't need to keep wasting my time on the same people who just didn't appreciate me in the first place. I'd much rather be a happy lonely hermit crafting her heart out and all the while growing and profiting off of my art skills. If they want to attempt talking to me, they can do so at their own peril but I can't invest my heart or feelings in them... I just don't have it in me at this point. </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-58569133823979486622022-05-15T18:24:00.000-04:002022-05-15T18:24:41.290-04:00Married Man - Part 3<p>I wasn't expecting to be making this post so soon but it seems this story has come to a close. After two days of me not speaking to him I then asked him if we could find time to talk at work. I tried to be nice and was met with a... "you're a wonderful, awesome, beautiful woman, but like you said, I have a lot going on and that's why it isn't going to work out." When I asked him what he had going on that had him so busy I was met with a rude rejection and he told me he was now upset with me and did not want to have a further conversation at work. He then went on to tell me how I suddenly lived too far away, we lacked communication, and I needed to find someone younger and more single. That was all news to me because none of that was ever an issue going into things as we already knew the situation from the start so it felt like he was really reaching for any tiny reason to just eliminate me from his life (or as much as a co-worker I see bi-weekly can).</p><p>After a few days, I tried to message him again just to see if he would rather we try to meet up outside of work because he had tried to switch the roles and basically make me out to be the bad guy here. I haven't heard from him since so I decided to just take his advice and move on. Perhaps when mercury is no longer in retrograde he will come back around but I'm not going to sit around waiting. I even told him that once he leaves that's it, I don't give second chances, and I think that scared him from actually wanting to tell me off further.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfzWLGQ8H1ZSA9OCXSZ07scXbH4-tVxfZWQ785jUSGPOm4mC0vD5AZ4ev07PtHYykcGmZo20xy_Ai7MailhpjSCxj3gQpH-rqh-r_Yllusc2cHc6Hf5j97-s1rE5WJkzYd3AS6a5vHNK8uwEc-TgNPxpZMODlrfcG5OIZuwKaWjpVJKBtmsUrofYBJjQ/s509/alone.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="339" data-original-width="509" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfzWLGQ8H1ZSA9OCXSZ07scXbH4-tVxfZWQ785jUSGPOm4mC0vD5AZ4ev07PtHYykcGmZo20xy_Ai7MailhpjSCxj3gQpH-rqh-r_Yllusc2cHc6Hf5j97-s1rE5WJkzYd3AS6a5vHNK8uwEc-TgNPxpZMODlrfcG5OIZuwKaWjpVJKBtmsUrofYBJjQ/s320/alone.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><p>I don't know why he felt the need to reach so hard to get rid of me when he's the one who flirted with me for months, he's the one that wanted a relationship with me, and he's the one who chose to ignore my needs. Now he just left me feeling confused about the whole situation and I'm pretty sure I heard him speaking with someone else in his office and he mentioned how he doesn't know what he wants. If that's true I wish he had just talked to me about it. Regardless, he is a married man and he isn't actually available from a dating aspect, so as usual I'm just forced to have to move on with my life. </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-7844170346955996382022-05-08T15:45:00.001-04:002022-05-08T15:47:00.717-04:00Married Man - Part 2<p>For those awaiting an update on the married man situation at work here's what I believe has happened since my previous post. So, we had what I thought was a "date" so I showed up looking as cute as I could for a fishing date, he seemed wowed and had no complaints but was like "oh, I didn't realize this was a date or I would've dressed a little better" and I was like "no-no, you're fine, I'm just excited to be spending time with you" although I felt a little bit like... 'what the F***' because according to my previous post I was under the impression it was a date. Long story short on that situation but we didn't do too much fishing, mostly cast out some fishing poles, sat, and chatted for several hours, but we did kiss a little.</p><p>Since then we've kissed a few times at work and we had planned to go fishing again this past week and perhaps move to the next "base". Well, he ended up canceling our plans the night before and claimed his son had gotten sick, so he had to stay home. So he text me a bit that Friday which was surprising because I had mentioned to him before how I don't hear from him enough but... that's where the texting had stopped and he went silent for a week straight. Myself, I have a 3-day rule to which, if I don't hear from someone after 3 days I just move on with my life because he hadn't responded to my messages all this time. So after this week passed all I got was a message saying "hey" and then 30 minutes later he says "nevermind" because clearly, I wasn't going to respond just as he hadn't to me all this time (even though I'd be seeing him at work 2 days later anyway) as I believe you treat people how you want to be treated.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_RY8CZRR5g8m8ksGLA2CMEhKceowgWk8e2oc9GO7GuDk5Q84IcipGwQyy06ohP4cFO05v6U74iv-19VmehGhQl43wUxhtaPrOv3UJHCbR9FMHGGdcgXWP6Jz1ovSDQ06Z6RzGYDcOW2dI--oJKWnRNr1GceTCM53QhNqdiMMKO5XxsqfMqtyNeOx1wQ/s498/edwin-andrade-5CpS8deLsDY-unsplash.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="498" data-original-width="486" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_RY8CZRR5g8m8ksGLA2CMEhKceowgWk8e2oc9GO7GuDk5Q84IcipGwQyy06ohP4cFO05v6U74iv-19VmehGhQl43wUxhtaPrOv3UJHCbR9FMHGGdcgXWP6Jz1ovSDQ06Z6RzGYDcOW2dI--oJKWnRNr1GceTCM53QhNqdiMMKO5XxsqfMqtyNeOx1wQ/s320/edwin-andrade-5CpS8deLsDY-unsplash.jpg" width="312" /></a></div><p>So the day came when we would be working together again and he had the audacity to come at me with this fake attitude and claimed that he text me a lot. I gave him the cold shoulder and I'm like... "I didn't hear from you for a week, so I don't know where you're claiming to have texted me a lot." He had no proof to show me otherwise so, he can be upset all he wants but he needs to be upset with himself and his actions and not me, as I'm the person who asked him to talk to me more frequently in the first place. One thing I forgot to mention was that he had also become my boyfriend, that seemed to be what he had really wanted but at this point... if you don't want to act like a boyfriend or even a friend for that matter, then you won't be shit to me except for being my co-worker (I have no control over that at this point). I then texted him and stated how I felt, stating that he doesn't care about me and only wasted my time and feelings. He then darts back into my office where I was the only one working at the time he first stopped by but this time he sees my co-worker is working with me today so, I just glance over at him and back at my phone and he walks out the back door after greeting my other co-worker, he then proceeds the back way back to his office after faking like he had work to do out that way. </p><p>I'm not sure what will happen next but we'll see if this possibly leads to a Part 3. In my opinion, either he'll apologize and do as I asked, or... we'll just move on as if nothing ever happened in the first place and I'll go on ignoring him. Besides, according to him, nothing has happened with us... so I guess the kissing and our relationship status meant nothing to him anyway.</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-83846014837752604502022-04-13T18:43:00.002-04:002022-04-13T18:43:55.693-04:00Falling for... A Married Man<p>Years ago as I was working late at night when this new mechanic appeared at my workplace, he was goofy, cute, and well... it was kind of love at first sight for me because he kind of reminded me of someone from my past. Night after night he kept passing through my office and I kept wishing he'd ask me out or just talk to me a little longer but... he never did. So I just assumed he maybe wasn't interested in me or maybe he wasn't even single. I ended up leaving the company for a few years to pursue my degree and I later got a job in a different field. My job lasted a year and before I knew it I was coming back to work for this company once again, and honestly, I was super happy to be back. Upon coming back to the company there were still a fair amount of people I remembered working with before and this adorable man happened to be one of them. This time around was different though, he was flirtatious with almost all the women at work and we soon discovered he was in fact married. However, it didn't change the fact I still had a crush on him and it seemed that me ignoring my feelings, and at times him too, just made him come around even more. </p><p>Before long I found myself constantly desiring to be with him in every way possible and trust me, as an overthinker, everything negative about the whole situation had crossed my mind... down to the fact that we could eventually get caught by co-workers or possibly his family, and if it didn't work out we'd likely still be working at the same place. Honestly, keeping a low profile at work about relations with a co-worker is something I have concealed pretty well in the past because frankly, my personal life is no one's business unless I want it to be. As for his marriage situation, he claims it's "a marriage of convenience" as they have a 13yr old kid together but as he stated "once he's 18 he's an adult" so, that basically changes things for him and his likelihood of getting a divorce down the road (according to him that is). It does seem though that he has made failed attempts at communicating things with his wife about how he's feeling over their marriage. Yes, I have even tried putting myself in her shoes but I can't help how he feels about either of us... unless I were to just put a stop to things but it's hard when we both seem to have strong feelings for one another. I am curious though, that if he's going to stay in his marriage, how will he feel if I see other people because he can't fully commit to me at this point, or maybe I shouldn't care since him having an affair (or maybe even more than one) would just put us on a somewhat more equal playing field. Who's to say that his wife isn't out doing the same thing herself. Personally, I don't think it's worth me stressing over his wife and if he really wanted to leave her, he would, and I'm not going to force him into doing anything as it was his initial choice to pursue me.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCcIWwwFGIoiAICOCzYqG1YoUCMKHzLBLbam9LUYpKm95bEhNTLGJtp2nCSLj4aY0A_3ES89d9itW3bZ8CFjwTqoNSMcKd_Ty5yGQIuRwggo9jKMUzCq1KijVgo6HkY6ARF4n2GJp6r9DQuE0z_aiy5ptiyc047Ia4svPDy6eUjRT07MULj2u4vJpZzQ/s2500/khamkeo-vilaysing-OcxlTBbb6SY-unsplash.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1786" data-original-width="2500" height="229" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCcIWwwFGIoiAICOCzYqG1YoUCMKHzLBLbam9LUYpKm95bEhNTLGJtp2nCSLj4aY0A_3ES89d9itW3bZ8CFjwTqoNSMcKd_Ty5yGQIuRwggo9jKMUzCq1KijVgo6HkY6ARF4n2GJp6r9DQuE0z_aiy5ptiyc047Ia4svPDy6eUjRT07MULj2u4vJpZzQ/w320-h229/khamkeo-vilaysing-OcxlTBbb6SY-unsplash.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><p>About a week ago I got back from a 3-week long work trip to which he told me yet again how he misses me when I'm working at a different station (even though I shyly tried to invite him to come). He then proceeded to ask me out on a date and he was very excited and nervous in doing so. I agreed and I helped come up with an idea for our date, he picked the time and day, and we were set. A few days leading up to our date he came by the office, closing the door behind him and saying how he really wants to kiss me... but I told him we should wait so, he was fine with that (I didn't want our first kiss to be in a dusty storeroom at work, but I guess I'm just a sucker for little things like that because you only get one first kiss with someone). He also told me how he got a burner phone so that he can talk with me more because it has been hard to find any alone time to talk at work... trust me, it isn't for a lack of effort on either of our ends. </p><p>While some of you may be sitting there upset or just waiting for things to blow up, that's fine because I'm waiting for that moment too, and trust me, I GET IT. I don't know where things will lead or if I'll even be able to fully trust him myself but I still feel the need to see where things go because I have started falling for this person. I have rejected love for a very long time, to the point I have made it pretty non-existent in my mind and I'm not here to deny that to myself any longer, nor to someone else, if that's how they end up feeling too. I'm not here to end a marriage and who knows, maybe this ordeal could make his marriage stronger, the world has an odd sense of humor. I'm trying to be optimistic and think outside the box and the realm of what society deems as being "the norm" because if you haven't noticed... people do cheat and lie, that seems pretty normal, even if we constantly have a distaste for it. </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-64642948466062280772022-01-18T23:21:00.001-05:002022-01-18T23:25:01.469-05:00The Scam Artist<p>Recently a new guy came into my live stream and while we didn't talk much I decided to follow him and went into his live stream the next day. After a short few days of chatting we exchange numbers to which the first thing he mentions is how he's trying to sell a PS5 and iPhone12 on FB MarketPlace but it keeps taking down his ads. I told him that maybe FB feels he's running some type of scam, to which he agreed but then I think that comment got to his head (you'll find out why eventually).</p><p>So I proceed to ask him about the PS5 because I was very interested in purchasing one myself as they haven't been easy to come by due to the pandemic. He claimed to be selling them because he has $900 to pay in taxes. I told him maybe he could return it to Amazon (since he said he purchased it there) but he claimed the money wouldn't get back to him for another 30 days if he did. He told me he would sell it to me for $500 and claimed how shipping would oddly be $100 (not sure if he was paying that but as an online seller myself I don't think it'd cost that much to ship). Let's not forget that no one is filing their taxes for almost another 2 weeks and that taxes aren't due until late April.</p><p>I proceed to tell him that I'd purchase the item through a PayPal payment to which he claimed he no longer had PayPal due to an overdraw in the past and that I'd have to use CashApp or a Moneygram (and I'm not even sure how you overdraw on PayPal in the first place). I explain to him that PayPal is the only online payment I trust and that it's unfortunate he doesn't have it because I did really want the PS5. He then turns crazy and starts saying how I'm treating him like some type of scammer, which I never called him a scammer but only suggested that FB possibly thinks he's one. He proceeds to insult me in various ways and I block him. </p><p>A short while later and he's messaging my phone under another phone number. This time he tells me how he was able to set up a new PayPal account so that I could now send him payment. I'm like, I don't appreciate how you talked to me so, no thank you, I'm not interested. He gets upset all over again and I ignore him. A little while later he messages me again but this time telling me that he now really needs the money whereas before he claimed to not really need the money after all. He tells me to come to his stream and see how his car has just broken down on him. So I go into his stream and all I see is him streaming in his car and just sitting there parked and chatting with everyone so, I'm not sure how that comes off as his car is broken down. So I eventually just block him again. </p><p>So I noticed he had also sent me a friend request on Instagram and that's when I saw that the name he told me, in the beginning, wasn't even his real name, plus it also had his last name. I decided to do a Google search on him and like my last boyfriend I mentioned on here, I was not disappointed in what I found. It turns out this guy had been arrested for "suspicion of trafficking stolen property." In lamest terms, he basically tried to sell stolen goods and act like he didn't know. That said, it makes sense why FB may possibly flag any high-value item he may be selling and why he got so offended by the scammer remark. </p><p>Two days later and he's messaging me again under a third different phone number but this time he tries working more of a sympathy angle, all while still being a rude prick of course. This time he tries to tell me how his grandfather is on Hospice and he wants to go see him but he needs money to do so. Again, he tries to sell me this PS5. To make this short, sweet, and hopefully get rid of him for good I simply tell him that I no longer have the money, to which all he has to say to that is "K". </p><p>I really hope I don't hear from this guy again because it's not going to be pleasant for him a 4th time around. That said, stay safe out there everyone because even if they look like Jeremy Renner, if they rather have your money than your heart, they aren't worth your time. Also, don't let anyone disrespect you, I'm so sick of guys who try to bring people down to their low level and make you feel crazy. You know, the type of guy you can have a whole a** conversation with and he just turns around and acts as if he never said any of that even when you have the convo receipts. Like, why lie like that, makes no sense unless they think they're somehow going to make you out to be the bad guy as he sends text screenshots to his buddies later. That's fine if he does but just remember, I have receipts too. </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-73836725006640558032021-12-19T15:53:00.002-05:002021-12-19T15:54:21.275-05:00The Return of a Moronic Man<p>Yes, this post is now becoming a saga as the first "Moronic Man" I talked about in my previous post resurfaced yesterday. I know I didn't go in as much depth about him as I should've previously so here's the story on this guy. </p><p>He met me off a dating app to which he knew all along I was looking for a serious relationship, yet after days of talking and him trying to inappropriately touch and kiss me he decided to drop a bomb on me, which had he been upfront I never would've wasted my time talking to him in the first place. He told me how all this time we had been talking that he has known all along that he has to move by the end of the month and in doing so he's either going to join a band up in PA that tours all over the US or he's going to move to Indiana to start his own band with a guy he knows who can be his singer. First off, I have no clue why he had to move at the end of the month, I'm assuming it's because he lives with his parents who perhaps told him he has to move or that's just when he had planned to move as to not overstay his welcome. </p><p>Of course, I was upset he was not only a creep but also wasted my time on top of things. To make a long story short I'm going to insert a few text quotes he has sent me...</p><p><i><span style="color: #3d85c6;">Him: "I had my cry last night ok but today is a new day and you have to move forward".</span></i></p><p>I'm not so sure the old saying "tomorrow is a new day" really works when it comes to someone's feelings. Like if your dog dies you're probably not going to be fully over it the next day, just saying.</p><p><i><span style="color: #3d85c6;">Him: "I really wish you would stop assuming and just make peace with reality. I already have and I offered my friendship at least."</span></i></p><p>I'm not sure how it's any type of assumption when he stated the fact that he knew he was moving long before we ever started talking, and "make peace with reality"... yea, the reality is that you're just a wannabe f*ck boy d-bag who wastes peoples time that is trying to find a serious relationship. What good is his friendship to me when he won't even be around and I clearly don't know him to be able to build and maintain a friendship?</p><p>So several days later and last night he messages me out of the blue after claiming I blocked him yet, somehow he was able to message me, so he wasn't blocked...</p><p><i><span style="color: #3d85c6;">Him: "I'm not moving... personal choice but I'm staying here. Some shit went down where some people didn't work out for music so, I'm staying here."</span></i></p><p>Long story short he kept trying to call me to explain things and I just told him I was busy talking to someone else. Will, he eventually call me again? Probably and that'll likely bring us to Part 2 of this saga. It's funny that he was so reliant on this band in PA that he forgot about going to Indiana... he acted so sure he would be part of this band and that if it didn't pan out he'd still be leaving. Not really sure what personal choice it was, just sounds like a scared boy unsure of how to live out his dream. He's the same person who thinks you can really make a living doing DoorDash out in the country when I did those types of jobs for so long that after taxes and car maintenance, you really aren't making much of anything in the end. He even tried to convince me to leave my job to go back to doing that, like, that's never going to happen as I like having medical, 401k, and flight benefits while making decent pay. Unlike him, I'm not working to drive and pay off 50k in debt for a big new car I can't afford, I'm a responsible adult and I'm realistic enough to know what I can and can't afford to do or be doing.</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-90017214664617618862021-12-12T17:26:00.001-05:002021-12-12T17:26:28.056-05:00Moronic Men<p>All week I felt I've dealt with moronic men as I had a date with one guy who felt as if the word "no" meant "yes" and basically was telling me how his feelings were more valid than my own. Since, if he wanted to kiss me then he shouldn't be turned away by me. Yet if I don't want to be kissed or kiss him then something must just be wrong with me (sorry but his rapey vibes just weren't my cup of tea). To make things odder he happened to know one of my exes and while he and my ex could be IG buddies this new guy chose to block me instead of adding me to his IG. On top of which this guy kept inquiring about my past relationships and what they all did wrong so that he could then try to be as much of a douchebag as all of them combined. This is why I avoid Scorpio men.</p><p>Next on my list of moronic men this week is a guy I hooked up with back in 2019, it was short-lived but he has continued to off and on pursue me over the years. He's someone who doesn't message daily but maybe once every week or two (or even a year later) even though you don't make attempts to message him first or actually hang out with him again because you aren't really interested in him anymore, yet he continues making petty attempts to get you to come over to his new place and try out his new bed (insert eye roll here). So he messages me asking me what I want for Christmas and how maybe Santa will get it for me. So I tell him that I don't need anything from him and it's not as if we're a couple or something, besides my birthday is the week before. So he gets upset and seems under the impression I'm asking for a birthday present when I tell him that wasn't the case at all. Maybe he was just more upset with himself because after 2 years he doesn't even know when my birthday is, yet keeps acting as if he wants to rekindle things with me. Then he goes on to tell me how I just used him for dick... if that's how he feels why haven't I tried to get with him again? And why's he the one asking me to come and try out his new bed? He continues on by saying how I'm never the one to initiate contact with him first... yes moron, because I'm just not interested in you, ugh. </p><p>In summary, do not let moronic men or anyone for that matter make you feel dumb, crazy, etc because they haven't yet figured out how to be an actual decent person. It's really astonishing even on dating apps how some men feel that the only way they can get your attention is by being a jerk... don't even acknowledge people like that, just block them and move on because it's not worth your energy to humor them and they need to figure out for themselves how their dating tactics aren't working, they need to change for themself. It's the same people that have no issue with telling you how you're "negative" when they weren't exactly being positive by telling you that. Unfortunately, there will likely be some person with low self-esteem who will give them the time of day but you don't need to be that person and you deserve so much better, even if it means being single for as long as humanly possible, don't settle for less than you feel you deserve in life.</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-49855902553144686272021-11-09T16:27:00.000-05:002021-11-09T16:27:34.300-05:00Tired of Censoring Myself<p>First off, long time no see... I'm sure I've started writing a million posts on here only to opt out of actually posting anything and before you know it 4 years have passed. I'm honestly tired of being afraid to be my true self on social media when for me, this has always been a type of outlet. So, I'm just going to catch everyone up to speed on what's been going on in my life. </p><p>In 2016 I was working for an airline company for nearly 10 years to leave and get my degree in Communication and New Media (because my job wouldn't let me work part-time), to which, I graduated with honors and a double minor. About a year later I had started a career utilizing everything I learned while at University. I honestly hated my job in the visual communications field and felt like I was being treated like an intern for a year when I wasn't one. A month into the job and we were forced to work from home due to the pandemic and a year later my racist jerk of a manager setup a "2021 Plan" meeting on Teams to which I was rudely told how I wasn't part of their plan and therefore I got terminated and replaced by someone more focused on Video Production. So, I collected 6 months of unemployment which I should've kept getting but for whatever reason I stopped receiving my checks and 3 months later I received a call from an old co-worker who recently brought me back into working for the same airline company I was with previously, but I'm making more money now and I'm making more than these entry-level graphic design jobs are offering me as well. I'm honestly much happier working for the airlines and it really has been like a second family here.</p><p>In the fall of 2017, my mom and I started an Etsy business selling vintage home decor and we're making over $1,500 a year doing that. It's not much but it's money we didn't have before and in these times, every little bit makes a difference. I recently started a second Etsy shop this year where I started selling things that I make and that's allowing me to still have a creative side, but when I choose to be creative and not forced into making things I don't feel like making (as graphic designing for a company was a bit soul-sucking and that's coming from a lifelong artist). </p><p>As for my love life, that has been an utter shit show, nothing new but I recently got out of a 3-month relationship where the guy didn't want to talk about his past, but unfortunately when your past can be found out through a simple Google search... it comes back to bite you in the ass. Turned out the guy was a pedophile as he was 30 at the time and the girl was only 17 so, he spent 5 years in jail, and 5 years after that was when he came into my life through a streaming app. If he had been upfront with me or more open about his past, maybe things would be different, MAYBE. Not to worry though, ya gurl is a hot commodity all around the DMV these days and has her fair share of losers to choose from as VA is most definitely NOT for lovers.</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-54059829068238234192017-11-26T23:24:00.001-05:002017-11-26T23:24:44.081-05:00Owl Christmas Tree - Dupe<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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This year mom left me in charge of putting together a new Christmas Tree for the house. I had been wanting to do a "scary owl" tree for some time now, however, the owls I ended up getting were actually kind of cute. I also wanted to stick to something more traditional and have it match my mom's style of decor. I came across an adorable <a href="https://i.pinimg.com/736x/11/85/10/1185107acc5824e7b01cabfb31c746bf--owl-christmas-tree-christmas-time.jpg" target="_blank">Owl Christmas Tree</a> online and decided to try and recreate as best as I could... although it was tough finding anything exactly like it. In the end, I think our tree came out looking pretty good.<br />
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<b>Lowes</b> - Christmas Tree ($39 before tax).<br />
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<b>Hobby Lobby</b> - 1 bouquet of dried branch balls, 1 bouquet of pod balls, 1 bouquet of pheasant feathers, 30ft of wire ribbon, and 1 container of copper ornament balls (shiny and frosted mix). Everything that came on a stick got pulled/cut off from the balls, and I pulled the pheasant feathers apart from the grass that this was in (this gave us 3 groups of feathers to stick into the tree). Everything bought here was 50% off.<br />
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<b>Walmart</b> - 5 Owls, and 3 Gold-Glitter Pinecone Clusters (less than $13 after-tax).<br />
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<b>Things we already had at home</b> - Ornament Hooks, and Metallic Gold Paint with a Paint Brush (which we used on the black base that came with the Christmas Tree to accent it, and to highlight the branch balls).</div>
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Recently I have been helping my parents clean out their basement (<i>in which we've now removed at least 3,000lb of stuff from the house</i>) and as I was doing as such I stumbled across this book my mom had from 1989 called "<a href="https://www.amazon.com/Light-Fire-Ellen-Kreidman-1989-09-02/dp/B01LYTC7AF/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1501869125&sr=8-3&keywords=light+his+fire+ellen+kreidman" target="_blank">Light His Fire</a>" by Ellen Kreidman (<i>I kind of giggled at my mom for having this but when she claimed that it's how she got my step dad to marry her.. I took the bait and actually decided to read a book for a change</i>). Initially, I questioned how relevant this book would be today but as I'm now halfway through chapter 2 it does feel relevant and I think anyone looking to improve their relationship could benefit from this book.<br />
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This summer I ended up ending a relationship that lasted over a year and then remorsefully I had bounced into a new relationship that only lasted over a month during this same summer so, I felt that perhaps I could benefit from a book like this right now. I started summing up this book with some notes and decided to share it with you all on here. As I continue reading this book I will try to post more chapter notes on this blog and I would love to hear from you in the comments on if these things have been working for you or if you enjoy reading these notes of mine from the book.<br />
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Interestingly enough this book thus far has recently helped me start building a strong connection with someone new (<i>I was pretty shocked to be honest because I didn't think this stuff would work, and you know me... when things do or don't work I will tell you the complete truth about it</i>). One of the things I will mention on here is that I noticed (<i>and this new person noticed because he actually still remarks on it and copies my behavior from it now.. without him even knowing I'm using the methods learned in this book</i>) was when he asked me where I would like to go out to dinner. My response to this was <i>"it doesn't matter to me, as long as I'm with you I'll be happy going anywhere</i>". He laughed and then stated, "<i>I feel like we are teenagers in love</i>"... I was honestly shocked because that's what this book is trying to help couples do and the fact I'm not yet in a relationship with this person was pretty amazing. I will say this... if you have a past relationship and you read this book in hopes of trying to reconnect with an ex (<i>who may have already moved on in a sense</i>) than I don't know that this book will help you regain that relationship status with said person again. I feel like you'd end up doing a lot of apologizing (<i>such as admitting you made mistakes, although don't state to him his mistakes.. just take accountability for your part on how you handle things</i>) and that he may not know how to handle that (<i>call it the male ego if you will</i>), but all you can do after that is possibly wait things out (<i>maybe he'll come around</i>). Without further ado below are my chapter 1 notes, enjoy!<br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-20281703591325199852017-07-14T12:58:00.002-04:002017-07-14T12:58:43.601-04:00Loving Tan - Review<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-87023950201491379802017-07-07T14:36:00.001-04:002017-07-07T14:51:52.869-04:00Bad Relationships<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I can safely say I have had my fair share of bad relationships and today I wanted to share with you some things I went through in the past which became things I didn't like about who I was seeing. While this is mainly my advice to women about men it can be applied to anyone. Just know, you aren't alone when it comes to unhappy relationships and you shouldn't waste your time waiting for someone else to change because people are going to be who they are. It's one thing to accept minor flaws, but if it's something that internally hurts your soul or makes you upset because you're so hurt by that person... then they aren't right for you. Don't ever think for a second that there isn't someone better for you, and there is nothing wrong with being single either. Your happiness matters, end of story.<br />
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<b><u>If you aren't first, you're last</u></b><br />
If he puts everyone first before you. It may be understandable that his family comes first but if you're in a serious relationship than that person should also view you as a family member as well. If you're the last person he invites to do things with or the last person he mentions events too... then you are either the last person on his mind or he perhaps debated asking you to do something at all.<br />
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<u><b>If you give someone a penny and they ask for a dime</b></u><br />
If you try to do something nice for him and he ends up just gripping about it than you may not be the right person for him (or vice versa). If they complain about the way you clean or that you cleaned at all... you need to just quit while you're ahead. If you offer to pick up tacos from TacoBell (because you thought it was a nice gesture) but he asks you to make them instead (which will cost you a lot more if you don't already have the ingredients) he may not be the person for you. Someone that's into you will generally appreciate everything kind that you do for them, even if you made a minor mistake in the process.<br />
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<b><u>Let's talk about sext baby</u></b><br />
If he feels he can sext other women and not feel it's cheating, then so can you girl (but why stoop to someone else's level... just get out of that relationship while you can). If you think it's not cheating when he's sexting just think of all the D pics/videos he's sending them, how he's telling them how he wants to meet them or buy things for/from them, telling them the same sweet nothings he told you, and is wasting energy talking to someone else when he should be wasting energy on the good woman he currently has... you need to dip out of that mess.<br />
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<b><u>Burns Bridges</u></b><br />
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If he makes you look bad to his friends or family and doesn't do anything to fix it once you find out... he probably doesn't give two cents about how you really feel.</div>
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<b><u>Nit-Picks</u></b><br />
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If he gripes how you're walking too slow, he thinks his music choices rank supreme over yours, or he corrects you on how you pronounced something incorrectly (maybe you thought it was cute to pronounce things that way) then he isn't right for you.</div>
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You have issues that stem for longer than a month (30 days) you need to get out and move on with your life because either he isn't taking your issues with him seriously or he just doesn't care about you. It shouldn't take longer than a month to correct a problem he caused.. if you think it does take longer than be prepared to keep waiting for years to come (do you want that storm cloud looming over you for that long?).<br />
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<b><u>Block</u></b><br />
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If you block him because he just isn't acting right and is going off the hinges over things he started yet he won't take any accountability for... just keep blocking him and move on with your life. If he leaves you voice messages how he'll call the cops on you because you blocked him... he is crazy and you should be the one calling the cops on him.</div>
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<b><u>It's okay for him</u></b><br />
If he thinks it's okay for him to do or say certain things but not you... nah, everyone deserves to be treated equally. He can go out and "network" with co-workers but if you do it or you want to go out and do the same things with him at a later time and he won't... just leave and do your own thang girl.<br />
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<b><u>Abuse</u></b><br />
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If he physically abuses you or even verbally abuses you then you need to get out now. Whether it's unwanted sex, verbal threats, physical violence, etc. don't be afraid to contact authorities or even have someone you know or a neighbor do it for you. If you have a car or a good friend/family member/coworker or money for a hotel room than you will hopefully have a safe place to stay for awhile so that you can move away from that guy. Don't let abuse run your life just because you may be living with that person or whatever. If they're living with you than they need to find somewhere else to live, and if they won't leave then you need to contact authorities.</div>
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<b><u>Don't Make Excuses</u></b><br />
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Don't be someone who makes excuses for someone else's ill behavior like "they were just drunk", "he had a bad day", "we made future plans", "he loves me", etc. If it happened once it can happen again and again so just don't put yourself through that. You don't deserve to be treated badly ever. Yes, it can be hard to get out of a relationship because you have feelings for that person but trust me... it's just as easy to say goodbye and move on. You will move on in time and this is not the end of the world. Just know, you are stronger and more resilient than you may realize, and what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger and wiser.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-53296137528813482872017-04-20T19:43:00.001-04:002017-04-20T19:43:07.638-04:00Peep Pro Shake<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
With the Starbuck's Unicorn Frapp taking over Instagram I decided to create a healthy yet tasty version based on several of its ingredients and a few things that aren't listed. Also, there's no coffee in my version but you can, of course, alter yours if you choose.<br />
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1 Packet - Carnation Instant Breakfast powder in Vanilla<br />
1/2 Cup - Milk<br />
1/2 Cup - Coconut Water<br />
1/2 Cup - Raspberry, frozen<br />
1/2 Cup - Mango, frozen<br />
Sprinkling - Coconut, fine<br />
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Combine Milk and Coconut Water, and then divide in half. Add the mango to one half of the milk coconut water mixture, and blend. Repeat the same steps with the raspberry this time on the other mixed half. Pour the mango mix into a glass followed by the raspberry mix on top. Sprinkle with some finely shredded coconut, and top with a peep if desired.<br />
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Side Note: You can combine all these ingredients together (minus the peep) if you want a quick and simplified version.</div>
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This was my first time making latke's and it wasn't half bad, but I definitely had to wing it with this recipe as I used the ingredients I already had on hand. If I made any changes to this in the future I'd add in some pre-cooked hashbrowns so that they aren't too mash potato-like in the inside.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-10147021375337593302016-12-21T13:03:00.003-05:002016-12-21T13:12:31.043-05:00Why I Stopped doing Makeup Tutorials<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I still wear makeup daily but I found for the most part that if something works for you.. don't fix it. I just like having a pretty everyday natural makeup look which I can wear daily and with some minor adjustments I can come up with enough looks to get by for any event. In the past, I wasted so much money on beauty products that all these "beauty guru's" from YouTube were using, or products celebs liked, and honestly I wasted so much money on these things. For every high-end product, it seems there's a cheaper dupe for it, and a lot of products I found I just didn't use much or really even like that much.<br />
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There are so many people doing makeup looks on YouTube these days that I really wouldn't even bother starting a makeup channel these days if I was looking to try to make a living off it. That being said it is why I feel if you an unusual hobby in your life then that's probably what will attract people most to what you have to share. Do something that other people aren't really doing, or something where you're finding a lot of misinformation. Granted if everyone thought like me then there would be a lack of "beauty guru's" and such. So by all means, do what you want to do.<br />
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I will occasionally share my daily looks but you'll probably find me using a lot of the same products. I also try to buy makeup shades that work specifically for myself. So many times a lipstick trend or something will arise and honestly vibrant red-orange lips and dark lip colors I really just can't see myself walking out of the house wearing that on my face... I personally feel ridiculous because I feel certain shades are super unflattering on myself. I would much rather find a wearable alternative to trends like that because I know I'll get the most use out of a product I'm most comfortable wearing. Also by finding these types of alternatives I feel you can create your own unique look, and by doing that I feel you can be more of a trendsetter rather than a complete follower. When you look good and feel confident in how you look, other people will want to know what you're doing to look so great.. but that's just my opinion.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-77485187583223034802016-11-19T19:41:00.001-05:002016-11-19T19:41:38.295-05:00Pumpkin Pie Spice - Recipe<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaIptxUgEgnjNj5H4Rm9p-uSBbPxFNjW1Wowe22SGNz4Zq9s0ze-CErJ2wulaTgXUrj8Fm-GkIMNK_nT9CrfcdoyfPTW5B56mBAlGrRNSjefSiqOaH8YT0TonqwCfWDpHd2iCdqeMRxSis/s1600/PPS.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaIptxUgEgnjNj5H4Rm9p-uSBbPxFNjW1Wowe22SGNz4Zq9s0ze-CErJ2wulaTgXUrj8Fm-GkIMNK_nT9CrfcdoyfPTW5B56mBAlGrRNSjefSiqOaH8YT0TonqwCfWDpHd2iCdqeMRxSis/s200/PPS.png" width="135" /></a>Tis the season for Pumpkin Pie Spice everything! You can use this for all your holiday desserts, drinks, or if you're like me you're adding it into your pancake mix as well. So here's my simple recipe on how you can make your own pumpkin pie spice. I used spices by McCormick (I recommend their organic line if it's available in the spice you want), and where it reads "part/s" you can use whatever measuring size you want (I went with tablespoons for mine). I also found that some other pumpkin pie spices may have additional things added to their spice such as ground clove, mace, sweet orange peel, brown sugar, or even cardamom.<br />
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<b><u>Ingredients</u></b><br />
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2 Parts - Cinnamon, ground (I love ground Saigon Cinnamon for this)<br />
1 Part - Ginger, ground (I used ground Chinese Ginger)<br />
1 Part - Nutmeg, ground<br />
1 Part - Allspice, ground<br />
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Combine ingredients into a spice jar (or similar). Close jar with a lid and shake vigorously until well combined.<br />
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Now you're ready to sprinkle your Pumpkin Pie Spice on whatever food your heart desires!</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-17290162212494745722016-11-06T19:09:00.001-05:002016-11-06T19:15:39.616-05:00Deer Costume - DIY<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
This Halloween I decided to be a deer so, I wanted to share my tutorial for the headband, ears, and tail. All the items I have here I got from Michaels, Hobby Lobby, and Target (or maybe you can find all this in one store). Overall, I thought this turned out really cute (although I didn't have time to do a deer makeup look) and a lot of people commented how I looked like a SnapChat filter which I thought was really cool too.<br />
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<b>Deer Ears</b><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Pattern (left) and Completed Deer Ear (right)</td></tr>
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What you'll need...<br />
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Brown Felt<br />
White Fur<br />
Thread, brown<br />
Sewing Needle<br />
Scissors<br />
Pen/Marker<br />
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You can make your ears whatever size you desire (I think my ears were around 4-5 inches in length), you can see the pattern shape I created in the above image (you may want to sketch out a pattern on paper before you cut your felt pattern out). Once you cut out your two felt ear shapes, you're going to reverse the direction on one of them in order to create a left and right ear.<br />
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Next you're going to cut out a rectangle of fur (mine was almost an inch in width and around an inch and half in length), be sure your fur is going in the right direction before you cut it out and to move your fur inward before cutting.<br />
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Next you're going to close the felt over on top the fur (see the above images to help figure out how to align them). Now you're just going to do a few simple straight stitches starting at the outer center ear fold and stitching down to the base, and then stitch the base of the ear shut. Knot off your stitch and trim off the excess thread and any white fur reaching out past the base. Repeat these steps for the other ear.<br />
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Blow your fur into an outward direction and trim off any white fur reaching out past your brown felted ears. Now that your ears are complete you can attach them at the base with hot glue onto your headband (tutorial below).<br />
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<b>Deer Headband</b><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Completed Deer Headband</td></tr>
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<b><i>What you'll need...</i></b><br />
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Headband<br />
Hot Glue and Glue Gun<br />
Fake Floral bouquet/s (of your choosing)<br />
Antlers/Twiggs<br />
Deer Ears (see previous tutorial)<br />
Wire Cutters<br />
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First off you'll want a tight fitting headband in order to support the weight of this design. Next you're going to want to pull off some flowers from your bouquet and snip off some ends of some others things (your choice how you do this). If you use these fake glittery twiggs I found at Michaels you'll need some heavy duty wire cutters to cut these down to the length you want (yes, these got glitter everywhere). Also, if you want fake antlers I'd check Walmart around this time of year in their Christmas section as that was the only place I saw any (I probably would've got those if I found them sooner).<br />
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Heat up your glue gun and start arranging your items onto your headband. I would recommend spacing your ears further apart then I did as I felt mine were too close for an adult person (it may be cuter for kids to have them closer together). Keep in mind once your headband is opened onto your head it makes everything go more inward so, you may have to play around with this in order to get your arrangment looking the way you want once on.<br />
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If you find your headband is a bit loose once on you may be able to use some hair clips or pins to help it stay in place on your head although, wearing this could be difficult if you plan to drive.<br />
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<b>Downward Deer Tail</b><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Completed Tail</td></tr>
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<b><i>What you'll need...</i></b><br />
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Brown Fur</div>
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White Fur</div>
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Cotton Stuffing (or similar)</div>
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Thread, brown (or white)</div>
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Sewing Needle</div>
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Brown Felt</div>
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Safety Pin</div>
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Scissors</div>
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Pen/Marker<br />
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In order to do this you will also need some basic needle/thread stitching skills, nothing fancy required but you can use a sewing machine if you choose (I didn't).<br />
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I started by making a diamond shaped pattern using a pen on the underside of the white and brown fur, the size is around the length and width of my hand (which for me is around 7 L x 4 W inches), avoid using a marker on the white fur (stick to using a pen). Brush your fur inward before you start cutting, and keep in mind the direction your fur runs before you cut it as you want it to look natural (see image above). You'll want to cut off about an inch from the base of your diamond. Once you have them cut out to equal sizes you'll want to cut off an extra 1/2 inch around the brown fur, just don't cut off more from the base.<br />
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Next you're going to cut out a 2x1 inch piece of the brown felt. This is going to be used for attaching your tail once the tail is complete so, you can make this longer if you'd rather attach it to a belt rather than a safety pin like I did. Now you're going to fold the fabric in half to make it 1x1 inch. Then you're going the stitch the ends of felt together to make a flat loop. Next you're going to stitch the base of your loop onto the inside base of your brown fur (the flat end of the diamond), you can adjust how much of the felt you want sticking out.<br />
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Now you're to place the fur pieces on top of each other with the fur sides out. Starting to one side of the base of your tail you're going to align the fur and straight stitch your way around the tail. As you stitch your tail you're going to want to pull the thread a bit tight to make it gather since you want the pieces to bend and form a rounded pocket (since the two fur pieces are different sizes afterall). Once you've gone all around your tail you'll want to stop at the base and fill the tail with your cotton (I didn't have cotton so I used some fake Halloween cobbwebbs I had on hand), you may need to use your pen to help you pack it down into the tail. Once heavily filled, stitch the base of the tail closed.<br />
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Brush out your fur to tidy it up. Attach a safety pen to the felt end of your tail and you're ready to pin your tail onto your costume!</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-47185791442387068672016-08-28T19:43:00.002-04:002016-09-15T21:59:19.234-04:00Eliminate Gossip and Slander - Spell<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I have recently developed a new interest in something a bit... magical we'll say. On Pinterest I have started saving a lot of pins on witchcraft. Of course, I do feel skeptical that any of this stuff really works but figured... why not have some fun and see what all the hocus pocus is about.<br />
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<b><u>Items</u></b><br />
I made a trip to Target to achieve my <a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/3Zn4yytPEu/" target="_blank">first Pinterest spell</a>.. and while this spell may be a bit hard to prove if it really worked or not I figured... what harm could it do? The reason I chose to do this spell was because I have been dealing with friends of a past love interest who I feel have been very gossipy and overly involved in this past relationship. I figured the best and fastest way to go about this spell is to buy a red candle that is tealight size so, I happened to find these red tealight candles (which are apple cinnamon scented..not sure that matters for this) on clearance while at Target and a pack (12) of them cost $2.28, while a small container of whole <a href="http://www.target.com/p/mccormick-whole-cloves-0-62-oz/-/A-13460105" target="_blank">Cloves at Target</a> cost $5.19.<br />
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<b><u>My how to</u></b><br />
I chose to use <u>3 cloves</u> for this (because.. the power of 3, IDK) and placed them on top my single<u> red tealight candle</u>. Since there are no words for this spell I felt it best that the person who is being gossiped about should be the one who lights this candle. Once lit, do not blow out the candle, allow it to burn until it goes out naturally (this is why I suggest using a small tealight candle). Be sure you do monitor your candle because if the cloves catch fire and go crazy.. you'll have a problem. However, my cloves didn't catch fire and they just sank down into the wax as the candle melted down. I also chose to set my candle on top a <u>small round mirror</u> to hopefully increase the spell's effects with the power of reflection (yea again, IDK.. my mentality for ya), while also keeping things a bit on the safer side as well. It may also help the spell along if you think of those that you know have been gossiping about you as you light your red cloven candle.<br />
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<b><u>My Results</u></b><br />
I'm not sure if this worked to eliminate gossip, but it may cause you to be the one doing the gossiping instead.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-72310647460391614942016-08-09T13:00:00.000-04:002016-08-09T13:00:46.679-04:00Hand Salve for Psoriasis - DIY<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
My mom has suffered from psoriasis on her hands for a long time now so, I decided to do a bit of research on some of the best ingredients to treat it with, and I created this tea tree smelling hand salve. As it turns out my mom use to do the same thing for her mom and herself a long time ago. While it did work my grandma she was not a fan of the tea tree smell, but my mom loves it stating "it smells like gasoline"! So I hope any psoriasis sufferers out there give this recipe of mine a try and let me know how it works out for you in the comment box below.<br />
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1/3 Cup - Coconut Oil (solid variety)<br />
1 Spoonful - Aloe Vera Gel (100%)<br />
1 Spoonful - Lavender Massage Oil (or lavender oil)<br />
1 Spoonful - Extra Virgin Olive Oil<br />
1 Spoonful - Sweet Almond Oil<br />
1 Spoonful - Tea Tree Oil<br />
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Place coconut oil into a glass jar (or similar). Melt the coconut oil 15-20 seconds in a microwave, or until it liquefies. Add in the other ingredients. Close the jar tightly with a lid and shake vigorously until ingredients are well combined. Loosen lid slightly and place in the fridge. Allow to cool in fridge until product solidifies. Your salve is now ready to use!</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-72476421218318142642016-08-02T18:24:00.000-04:002016-08-02T19:09:34.695-04:00Tom Kha Gai Inspired Soup - Recipe<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Since I have a citrus allergy I had to eliminate any lime/lemon from this recipe, and I omitted any hard to find ingredients (such a kaffir leaves, Thai peppers, and lemongrass). You can use fresh or canned mushrooms for this, any variety will do. If you want your soup spicier add more of the chili paste to it, my version is more on the mild side (if you're sensitive to spice I recommend using a lot less than what I did). If I was making this soup for a group of people I would probably slice some lime wedges on the side, and serve with steamed white rice.<br />
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4 Cups (32 oz) - Low Sodium Chicken Stock<br />
4 Cups (32 oz) - Unsweetened Coconut Milk, canned<br />
1 lb - Boneless Skinless Chicken, 1-inch cubed<br />
2 Cups (15 oz can) - Mushrooms, sliced<br />
1 branch - fresh Ginger Root, peeled<br />
1/4 Cup - fresh Cilantro, chopped<br />
2 Leaves - fresh Basil, whole<br />
1-2 Tbsp - fresh Scallions, thinly sliced<br />
1 Tbsp - Pad Thai Sauce<br />
2 Tsp - Thai Chili Paste (or similar)<br />
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<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">1 Pinch - Sugar (or substitute)</span><br />
1 Pinch - Chinese Five Spice powder<br />
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Add chicken broth, cilantro, basil, scallions, and ginger to a pot and bring to a boil stirring occasionally. Except for the coconut milk add in the rest of the ingredients and simmer 5 minutes, or until chicken is cooked (no pink in center). Add in coconut milk, raise heat and bring to a boil again. Remove from heat once boiling, remove ginger branch, and allow to cool a bit before serving.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7816519415010396365.post-51238166259692641442016-07-18T08:00:00.000-04:002016-07-18T08:00:00.153-04:00Get Your Beauty Groove Back (in 1 week)!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
When life has gotten out of control I just want to get back in the groove of things to feel better about myself, and I like to give myself a week to feel alive and vibrant again. The reason I don't recommend doing all this in a day is because you should give yourself something to do and look forward to every day, plus we don't all have the time to get all this done at once (feel productive daily!).<br />
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So, here's my quick simple list to help get your groove back on track, in a week.<br />
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<b>Mani Monday</b> - do your nails (so they look great all week).<br />
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<b>Tan Tuesday</b> - if you're not into tanning/sunless-tan then do something else for your body (or try the "for more..." tips below).<br />
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<b>Walking Wednesday</b> - a day for exercise (if this is the only time a week you have to workout then try to do at least 35 minutes straight of physical activity).<br />
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<b>Toothy Thursday </b>- deep clean your mouth (whitening, floss, pick, rinse, etc)! Although most of these we should do daily a lot of times life gets too hectic, so be sure to make time for your mouth.<br />
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<b>Facial Friday</b> - use a face mask, remove body hair, shave, etc. Enjoy and relax in a nice hot bath (I love doing detox baths).<br />
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<b>Sexy Saturday</b> - look cute/sexy today (show off all the hard work you've done this week) and find time to be flirty or chat with others, be social and go out.<br />
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<b>Shopping Sunday </b>- clothing, furniture, groceries, etc. because we all have errands that usually need done for the week ahead.<br />
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<b>For more...</b></div>
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<b>Daily</b><br />
Try to eat healthy (when you eat healthy you feel healthy).<br />
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<b>Once a week</b><br />
Clean up your living space (do laundry, organize, etc.).<br />
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<b>Every 4-6 Weeks</b> (or as needed)<br />
Dye your hair/roots (if you don't dye your hair then consider a trim, new hair style, extensions, a deep hair mask.. just do something haircare related as it can get neglected).</div>
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